I had hoped to be writing a very different post by now. But as it happens, I can’t. We’ve been trying for baby number two after I had my laparoscopy this last summer. So far we haven’t been lucky.
We’ve decided to take a step back. Tracking my cycles and ovulation every month is stressful. Plus Eric is still working on his MBA while also working full time. This leaves me with a full-time job and the majority of the child care duties with our little daughter. Which is fine most of the time, but she is almost three and definitely has her moments of defiance.
Part of Eric’s program ends with an international trip for 10 days to South Africa. This will happen in April and for those 10 days I will be on my own with daughter. I am only dreading it a little as it is, but I remember what my first trimester was like for my last pregnancy and I was miserable. Nauseated and fatigued almost constantly. It was hard just to function for myself, let alone be the sole caregiver for a 3 year old.
So we are waiting until May to start TTC again. We need a little break.
On a different note, I am toying with the idea of doing 100 days sober. Another friend that I follow here and on instagram posted that she was starting 100 days sober and it kind of resonated with me. Eric and I have some planned events that it would be nice to have a drink at, but after that I am thinking of starting Feb. 2nd through May 11th. I think this will be a good thing for me, so I am going to start telling my friends this weekend so they know I wont be drinking for this reason (and hopefully wont ask me every time if I am pregnant – I hate that people ask! Never. Ask.)
Let me say that again. NEVER ASK SOMEONE IF THEY ARE PREGNANT. Never. They will tell you if they are and they want you to know. Some women choose not to share the news too early. Some want to make sure they get to tell family first. You are putting them in a position to lie to you or tell you something they may not be ready/comfortable sharing. So just don’t. Even if its a good friend. They will tell you when they are ready.
So that is my life update for the moment. When I start the sober 100 days I am sure I will have more to say about it.
I am still reading Seneca’s book on Stoicism. This is a longer book than I realized, I am reading on Kindle and seem to make very little progress but there are certain gems to share with you all, so here they are:
The most serious misfortune for a busy man who is overwhelmed by his possessions is, that he believes men to be his friends when he himself is not a friend to them
This I say, is the highest duty and the highest proof of wisdom, – that deed and word should be in accord, that a man should be equal to himself under all conditions, and always the same
Your greatest difficulty is with yourself; for you are your own stumbling-block
To make a man rich, do not add to his store of money, but subtract from his desires
A good man will not waste himself upon mean and discreditable work or be busy merely for the sake of being busy
No man can swim ashore and take his baggage with him
Rise to a higher life, with the favour of the gods; but let it not be favour of such a kind as the gods give to men when with kind and genial faces they bestow magnificent ills, justified in so doing by the one fact that the things which irritate and torture have been bestowed in answer to prayer
Men do not care how nobly they live, but only how long, although it is within the reach of every man to live nobly, but within no man’s power to live long
We have reached the heights if we know what it is that we find joy in and if we have not placed our happiness in the control of externals
Pleasure, unless it has been kept within bounds, tends to rush headlong into the abyss of sorrow
Hope the year is starting out well for everyone. Let me know what is going on with you.